Archive | August 2015

A Woman Transformed

the transformation of Woman

In a  recent post I wrote about what felt like a turning point for me.  I feel as though I have experienced one of my biggest shifts to date.  At least that is my perception at this time.  An expansion of immense proportions.

As I AM always a work in progress, I AM now seeing the beauty and blessing that has been my life’s journey.  Pieces of the puzzle clicking into place.  Yet, even through all of this, there is an excitement building, an anticipation of things to come.  I continue my journey with the knowledge that I AM truly a woman transformed.

A Catalyst of Change

A Catalyst for Change

This past weekend was a time of great emotion as well as clarity.  Each day I step further into who I AM.  My confidence continues to grow and with that, the knowledge that I can no longer play small so that others may sit in their comfort zones.  As long as I play small, I allow others to keep me in a box.  I AM a limitless BEing, and I AM not doing anyone any true good by not embracing this truth.  I must BE ME, for in BEing me, I AM opening a space for others to BE who they are as well.

That BEing said, the realization is also once again BEing brought to my awareness that I cannot sit and wait while others make their decision to step into their own power.  I can only plant the seed, BE the catalyst of change.  What others choose to do with that is in fact their choice.  I cannot put the brakes on my own continued growth, for in my heart I know this is not God’s plan for me.

As I reflect on my life, I look back and see all the challenges I have faced.  But through it all I have always had my Faith in God’s will for me.  Even when it felt as though I could not always feel that connection, I would feel if I continued to put one foot in front of the other, a way would open up, a solution if you will.

As I stand in this phase of my journey, this feeling rises up in me.  I can no longer dim my light, even if /when that means that others may have to leave my life.  I continue to stay open and receptive to all possibilities to fully experience this calling that God has placed in  my heart.

A Mother’s Love

My Mother's Love

My Mother came to me in a dream on Saturday.  The dream was of me, my Mom and my son.  My son was a little boy and he was in the hospital.  But on the ceiling of his hospital room was this sticky stuff right over his bed and there were a few bugs that kept landing on it.  My Mom was so irate that the hospital had her grandson in this room that had bugs and she wanted him moved immediately.  That’s when I woke up.

This month is the two year anniversary of the passing of my Mother.  I miss her everyday.  My Mom was usually a very quiet, easy going woman, but when it came to her family, she was fiercely protective.  I feel as though this “visitation”  was my Mom’s way of showing me that even though she is on the other side, she is still watching over me and my son, still BEing fiercely protective.

This weekend was a time of further releasing, many tears and a heavy heart.  But I know she is with me as this is not the only “visit” I have had from her.  I feel she is encouraging me to release any regrets I may still BE holding in my heart regarding our relationship, and to remember all the wonderful times we spent together in this lifetime ( I AM working on it Mom, I promise).  So I end this sharing with the poem I wrote for my Mother after her passing.

Today the Lord whispered to you, He told you it was time, my child I’ve share you with the world, but you were always mine.

He knew our hearts would be heavy with grief, at times we would despair, but in our hearts we know the truth, He never gives us more than we can bear.

Though you are no longer here with us, we know you’re not alone, as you now rest peacefully with the Lord, He called His beloved angel Home.

The Veils


Last evening, as it was just starting to get dark outside, I had to go out and run an errand.  As I was getting in my car I turned around and looked back over the parking lot and everything looked as though there was a white film covering everything.  I blinked my eyes, thinking that’s odd.  I ran my errand and as I returned home to the road I turn into going into my development, I noticed a black car sitting on the side of the road, but once again as I looked out of the window, everything had this white film.  I turned to look at the car and driver as I drove by, but seemed like this it was not a totally clear view due to this film.  I realized when I finally parked that the person I passed was my Beloved.  Now let me say I can sense and feel him if he is around me, but yet I was not clear if that was him as I drove by.

I finally realized today that this was Spirits way of showing me the thinning veils that are happening at this time.  When I saw the picture above, it drove that point home.  I feel like this is why Spirit showed me using my Beloved, because for me to not “see” it was truly him speaks volumes.

So all this BEing said, the veils between the physical world and the spiritual realm are definitely thinning.  We are finding that we are able to connect more deeply with Spirit.  Though we have always had this ability, the denser energies of the old earth did not “allow” us to do so.  We “forgot” who we truly are.  As we awaken and clear away the dense energies of fear, shame, guilt, etc. we are able to “remember” and embody our true God-Self.  Things just keep getting more and more interesting and exciting!

A Morning Companion

grasshopper image

This morning as I got in my car to leave for work, a grasshopper landed right on my front windshield at eye level.  I thought for sure once I started driving he would hop off, but no, he was with me for the entire ride to work.  I immediately thought “take a leap of faith”.  Well I also looked up the symbolism for the grasshopper and the below information resonated with me.

As an animal totem, the grasshopper appeals to artists, musicians and dancers. To wit, the lilting song this creature emits is an inspiration to our muse; its skittering and jumping is divine choreography. The artist within us all easily recognizes the grasshopper making its own dance steps, and grooving to its own special melody.

The grasshopper moves to its own rhythm and tune, indicating this creature is advocate of intuition and listening to our inner voices. The grasshopper encourages us to listen to our own stirrings – those beautiful chirping lullaby’s that sing in our hearts are indications of our inner beauty and creativity. The grasshopper totem reminds us these inner musings must never be silenced – rather, they should be nurtured, and always remain as the background music to the performance of our lives.

As with most insect totems, the grasshopper keeps itself to the ground. As such, this is a grounding totem, and the grasshopper can teach us stability, patience, security, and solidarity.

The grasshopper chooses those of us who are innovators, forward-thinkers, and those who progress in life by unorthodox methods. This is because grasshopper symbolism recognizes tremendous leaps of faith, impressive jumps in progress and consistent forward momentum. Those with this totem are likely to aim high, and achieve amazing feats – they take great leaps where others fear to tread (or jump, in this case).

Another special feature of the grasshopper totem is that it calls to those who have natural clairvoyant abilities. Just as the grasshopper uses thousands of tiny eyes to formulate the “big picture” so too do those whom the grasshopper is called. In other words, those with this totem are visionaries. They see things intuitively, seeing beyond what the concrete world holds, and they use this special vision to see the world with a childlike wonder.

You just have to love Natures messengers.

My Twin Flame Journey – Beloved

yin and yang

My Beloved,

My heart awaits in  anticipation of your imminent return.  I have waited for all eternity for this moment.  The Love I feel in my heart for you, continuously growing and expanding, is but a mere drop in the sea of our Divine Love.  Our soul has longed for this time, where we can merge not only etherically, but physically, so that the world can bear witness to this beautiful Love.

You are the God to my Goddess.  My Beloved, I await your return with bated breath.

Heart Purity

About a week ago, once again, my Beloved and I were drawn together.  We were able to spend some time together this time around, which always makes my heart sing.   But for now we had to part ways once again.   I did notice something different after this time together.  That night when I went to bed I felt so energized.  I literally couldn’t sleep.  Usually when I can’t sleep, I become both restless and annoyed for the lack of sleep.  But this time I could feel this incredible energy in my body and I laid there quite peaceful and content.  I did think to myself that I did not know how I was going to make it through the day with no sleep at all, but as it turned out I went through the entire day with this energized feeling.  It made me realize that my Beloved and I are strong within ourselves, but together our energy is truly amplified.  I just love when I AM able to observe a new nuance to the connection between me and my Beloved!

A Turning Point


I received a menu in the mail last week for a restaurant called Turning Point.  Since then I have been seeing that phrase numerous times while reading different articles.  This is validation from Spirit regarding my previous blog post regarding a change occurring.  I Love the creativity of Spirit!  They will practically knock you over the head with what they want you to understand!  I do not know how this turning point will BE experienced, whether it is an internal turning point or an external change, but I AM open to how this calling on my heart manifests next.  So indeed it appears I have reached a turning point.

A Lighthouse


A couple of weeks ago I received a vision of a lighthouse with a swirling portal above it.  As a lighthouse represents a beacon of light for those who may not be sure of where they are in the darkness, a glowing beacon that remains steady regardless of the darkness that surrounds it, I feel this maybe a metaphor of things to come.  The swirling portal above it representing the portals and gateways that are continuously opening to allow higher dimensional realities to be experienced and explored.

When I started my journey many years ago, one of the messages I received from my guides was “you are a beacon of light.”  So the lighthouse vision definitely has meaning for me.

Whatever will reveal itself moving forward,  I AM feeling great anticipation and excitement.

Diamond Light Activation

light activation

Yesterday I experienced a diamond light activation in my third eye.  I was laying down with my eyes closed and all of a sudden the color violet filled my third eye and began pulsating.  Within this violet light was a white diamond shape that was glowing.  Then the color turned to brownish/red and looked liked rocks, then returned back to violet.  This went on for a few seconds.

Perhaps the violet and brownish/red colors are spirit realm and earth truly BEcoming one?  5D energies BEing more fully anchored on earth?  I do not have a full understanding of this activation as of yet, but it was truly amazing to witness.

Nature Speaks

nature speaks

Saturday was the Lion’s Gate (8/8/8) and the beautiful animal messengers were out in full force.  As I was driving past the open field as I was leaving the area I live in I saw a little rabbit do something I have never seen before.  He raised his back end off the ground with his back “legs” stretched as straight as they could go.  He looked like he was doing the downward dog yoga pose.  Then he raised up on his front “legs” too!  Just like he was standing on his tippy toes on all four limbs!  What an incredible sight to witness!

When I was returning home from picking up a bite to eat, I was driving down this road where there were no other cars (unusual for this particular road) and as I came around this small bend there was a doe standing in the road.  I immediately stopped to give her time to get out of the road.  There on the side of the road on a grassy area were her two fawns.  Oh how beautiful they were with their little white spots.  She walked over to the grassy area, but on the other side of this small bush from where her babies were.  Then one after the other they made their way around the bush to be with their mother.  Then all three looked at me.  In that moment I experienced pure Grace.  Their beautiful, gentle energy was palpable.  Now I understand why there were no other cars on that road.  I would not have been able to fully experience that moment if there were.  Never doubt that we are constantly surrounded by the Love of our Creator, as these two beautiful moments in nature are a testament.  I AM blessed and feel such gratitude for BEing  a part of those moments.

Below are some symbolism meanings I found:

Rabbits love to chew, and their teeth never stop growing. Symbolically, chewing implies repetition, contemplation, and breaking concepts down into component parts. Their diet is light and green, which implies symbolism of health and prosperity.

Rabbits are burrowers and their deep, maze-like tunnels symbolize connections with primal energy as well as Mother Earth energies. The rabbit encourages us to retreat within, get warm, and collect ourselves.

They also prompt us to connect with the Mother in deeper ways. Rabbits prefer to be on the ground; they are true earth element animals. We cannot help but be reminded of groundedness in their presence.

Rabbits and hares are nocturnal and share the same lunar symbolism. The moon is often depicted as a rabbit in many cultures, thus lending associations of deep intuition and emotionality. For sure, the rabbit symbolizes reflection.

Deer’s medicine includes gentleness in word, thought and touch. The ability to listen, grace and appreciation for the beauty of balance. Understanding of what’s necessary for survival, power of gratitude and giving, ability to sacrifice for the higher good, connection to the woodland goddess, alternative paths to a goal.

This two meanings do resonate with me and what is occurring in my life at this time.  I Love when I AM able to BE fully present to notice when nature speaks.