This past week has been a blur. The exhaustion I have experienced the past week has been such that I remember some of the interactions I have had in the physical with others and some I do not. It was if I was there, but not there. A participant and observer at the same time. I would describe the feelings at time as BEing very floaty (if that even makes sense). I have had to take naps in the evenings before bedtime, and then go off to bed later in the evening and sleep as though I did not have a nap a few hours before. I know there has been several major accelerations energetically this past week , there were times that I felt I could hardly keep up.
Last Wednesday as I was driving into my development, there sitting on the brick wall of the enclosure where the recycle bins are located was a huge turkey buzzard! I literally slammed on my brakes, backed up and parked and sat in my car so I could have a closer look. It seemed as though we made eye contact and once we did he took flight! In all of the years I have lived in my development I have never seen a turkey buzzard visit that area! Saturday night as I was on my way home well after 10:00 p.m. on a road that is not well traveled at night, as I turned a bend in the road, there in the middle of the road was a fox! He had no inclination to move, so I drove around him. Between the turkey buzzard and the fox (death and rebirth, adaptability) Spirit is leaving all kinds of clues.
I have been dealing with some fears that were BEing brought to the surface last week. For several days I was feeling major anxiety. As I contemplated all of this on a mental level, these feelings were front and center. All I could do was allow myself to feel what was coming up to BE felt and released. On Saturday, once I made the decision that whatever was going to happen with what I was dealing with, I would still BE safe and okay. As soon as I surrendered to what I was experiencing, a calmness settled over me.
I was able to have some quiet time to myself before I had dinner with my son on Mother’s Day and as I was laying still I heard the words “all must BE released”. This seemed to put everything I had been experiencing into perspective.
I remain in flow.