It has been a while since I have posted anything, but I have been noticing some things that I just wanted to share. I have been privy to several conversations where people are getting very upset about things that are going on in their life. I do think it is good to get in touch with our feelings, but I think maybe because of some events in my life my perception of things have shifted.
After having lost my Mother several years ago and most recently a beloved family member a few weeks ago, I only ask that when you are experiencing something that may have touched a “nerve” so to speak, please stop, take a deep breath and ask yourself if in the grand scheme of things in the end will it matter?
Let our hearts stay open and share all the Love we have to give.
It has been a while since I have written a post to share. I was feeling very strongly guided to go inward. So for most of the month of June I have been spending a great deal of time surrounded by my own essence.
This past Sunday as I awoke from sleep, I heard the words “something new”. Well isn’t that exciting! I have been feeling there has been some closure in my life. Not necessarily something tangible in the physical, but on an energetic level. In fact, there were times I felt very much in a holding pattern. So with these words, I knew a shift had taken place. I have been trying to rest in a place of serenity emotionally, not always succeeding, but always moving back to center if I felt thrown off “my game”. I AM intrigued to see what awaits.
Saturday morning I awoke (the in-between state) to a conversation taking place between me and one of my guides. What I became aware of BEing said is the following;
You do not need to mentally understand the information you receive. The fact is, you probably won’t. The heart knows and understands. All information you are given may not happen in a linear fashion, but will happen as it is meant to.
Then I fully awoke and cannot remember what else was talked about. Though I know on a deeper level I retain the information given, sometimes it would be nice to stay aware of all that is talked about. But hence, the point of what my guide said to me. Yes I understand, but it doesn’t make it any less frustrating.
I AM also BEing given messages through tarot cards to trust in my knowing and to BE patient. Ok, ok, I get it. Sometimes I guess I need to BE hit over the head with the same message. You would think after all this time I would have patience mastered. Apparently not.
I choose me. This realization speaks for itself. There have been several circumstances recently where I have felt someone appeared to BE putting me in a circumstance that felt like it would not BE in my best interest. Nothing physically dangerous, but perhaps dangerous to my emotional well BEing. So in each instance I said no thank you. I have to admit that each time I continue to do that I feel so empowered. My confidence flows because I realize that my own well BEing is just as important (if not more so, it is my well BEing after all) as the other person. I BElieve people can come to a mutual compromise, but should that compromise have to have one or the other person feeling like they have lost in some way? I don’t BElieve that has to BE the case.
But the thing is, each time I have said no to a particular thing that is BEing asked of me, the person goes back, re-thinks and comes back with a different idea. One that does work for me (all of the parties involved really). The compromise does not seem like it is geared to just the needs of the other party or parties involved. Which then makes me question the intent behind the original scenario given.
I AM standing strong in my own power, recognizing the power of my choices. I Choose Me. A simple statement with a powerful intent.
Two nights ago the number 1010157 popped into my mind as I slept. As tired as I was I got up to write it down so I wouldn’t forget. As I was thinking about this number today I thought the 10101 seemed like binary code. I went to the internet and was guided to a site that said this breaks down to the number 21. So now the number is 2157. As I continued to BE guided in my search I came across this when I typed in the meaning of the number 5, The number 5 symbolizes God’s grace. I immediately felt such a strong resonance to this sentence. When I looked up the meaning of the number 7, this meaning practically felt like it jumped off the page at me. The number 7 is the seeker, the thinker, the searcher of Truth (notice the capital “T”). The 7 doesn’t take anything at face value — it is always trying to understand the underlying, hidden truths. The 7 knows that nothing is exactly as it seems and that reality is often hidden behind illusions.
A few weeks ago I heard the following words, the power of two becoming One. When I looked at the number 21 I was reminded of these words I received. So when I put it all together it is “The power of two becoming One, through God’s Grace with nothing BEing exactly as it seems and reality is often hidden behind illusions”. I also found the below picture in reference to DNA and the piece of information that resonated with me.
The very program of life itself—the DNA molecule—contains the ‘Golden Ratio’.One revolution of the double helix measures 34 angstroms while the width is 21 angstroms. The ratio 34/21 reflects ‘Phi’, 34 divided by 21 equals 1.619… a close approximation of ‘Phi’s’ 1.618.
Notice the measurement mentioned of 21. Aside from the fact that 2 +1 =3 (the Trinity). I AM sure I AM only scratching the surface of the deeper meaning of all of this, there appears to almost BE layers upon layers of meaning. Once again, I AM in awe.
I AM BEing nudged to expand my vision (perception) of what is occurring around me. To view these occurrences through the eyes of Spirit. I AM given glimpses of the deeper meaning. With this deeper understanding Spirit says all is not as it seems. I AM bearing witness to the fear based beliefs that are playing out for others. There is so much anger, sadness and confusion. The masks are slipping. Others are not able to cover their internal fears as easily anymore. Which in turn only increases the fear vibration as they worry how much of themselves is BEing witnessed. People are lashing out, or seeming to fall into depression, or their demeanor feels as though they feel very lost and alone. I have to admit my nervous system has been on overload the last few days as my energetic sensitivities are on high alert.
I know this is serving a purpose, keeping me aware so that I may move into compassion and not take things personally. Is this an easy task? Not always. But as I AM able to observe through the eyes of Spirit, my heart does open up with compassion. But with this information comes the need for more time alone to sit with my own energy. But my purpose here is to BE of service, in whatever way that may show up in my world.
I have had another deep internal shift. With this shift I AM observing how others are reacting to my Light. What does that mean? The reaction to my vibratory frequency. I AM noticing when some people are in a conversation with me they automatically reach out and touch me, whether on the arm or shoulder. It seems as they are not even aware of this. I AM also experiencing others who almost appear clingy. This is not in judgement but in observation. I have been asked why they haven’t heard from me, why haven’t I called, perhaps I AM triggering their feelings of past abandonment, so they are experiencing what appears to BE my lack of communication as they are some how losing me. Last but not least, I have even experienced others appearing to react to me in a very verbally aggressive manner. Let me just say the energy behind those encounters is not pleasant!
But with these experiences I have to remind myself not to take it personally, for they are not reacting to me due to personal reasons, though it may appear that way. They are in fact reacting to the way my vibratory frequency is triggering their own inner wounds. So for those who are drawn to the Love that I AM radiating it appears positive, those who, on a deep subconscious level, are not yet experiencing their own self – Love are having a very different experience.
I have no control over how others react to me, as I can only continue to BE the Love that I AM. But I can hold those who have not yet remembered their own state of BEing Love in a place of deep compassion. All on this journey must go at their own pace.