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Will It Matter?


It has been a while since I have posted anything, but I have been noticing some things that I just wanted to share.  I have been privy to several conversations where people are getting very upset about things that are going on in their life.  I do think it is good to get in touch with our feelings, but I think maybe because of some events in my life my perception of things have shifted.

After having lost my Mother several years ago and most recently a beloved family member a few weeks ago, I only ask that when you are experiencing something that may have touched a “nerve” so to speak, please stop, take a deep breath and ask yourself if in the grand scheme of things in the end will it matter?

Let our hearts stay open and share all the Love we have to give.

Something New

something new

It has been a while since I have written a post to share.  I was feeling very strongly guided to go inward.  So for most of the month of June I have been spending a great deal of time surrounded by my own essence.

This past Sunday as I awoke from sleep, I heard the words “something new”.  Well isn’t that exciting!  I have been feeling there has been some closure in my life.  Not necessarily something tangible in the physical, but on an energetic level.  In fact, there were times I felt very much in a holding pattern.  So with these words, I knew a shift had taken place.  I have been trying to rest in a place of serenity emotionally, not always succeeding, but always moving back to center if I felt thrown off “my game”.    I AM intrigued to see what awaits.

A Morning Conversation

a morning conversation

Saturday morning I awoke (the in-between state) to a conversation taking place between me and one of my guides.  What I became aware of BEing said is the following;

You do not need to mentally understand the information you receive.  The fact is, you probably won’t.  The heart knows and understands.  All information you are given may not happen in a linear fashion, but will happen as it is meant to.

Then I fully awoke and cannot remember what else was talked about.  Though I know on a deeper level I retain the information given, sometimes it would be nice to stay aware of all that is talked about.  But hence, the point of what my guide said to me.  Yes I understand, but it doesn’t make it any less frustrating.

I AM also BEing given messages through tarot cards to trust in my knowing and to BE patient.  Ok, ok, I get it.  Sometimes I guess I need to BE hit over the head with the same message.  You would think after all this time I would have patience mastered.  Apparently not.

I Choose Me

I Choose Me

I choose me.  This realization speaks for itself. There have been several circumstances recently where I have felt someone appeared to BE putting me in a circumstance that felt like it would not BE in my best interest.  Nothing physically dangerous, but perhaps dangerous to my emotional well BEing.  So in each instance I said no thank you.  I have to admit that each time I continue to do that I feel so empowered.  My confidence flows because I realize that my own well BEing is just as important (if not more so, it is my well BEing after all) as the other person.  I BElieve people can come to a mutual compromise, but should that compromise have to have one or the other person feeling like they have lost in some way?  I don’t BElieve that has to BE the case.

But the thing is, each time I have said no to a particular thing that is BEing asked of me, the person goes back, re-thinks and comes back with a different idea.  One that does work for me (all of the parties involved really).  The compromise does not seem like it is geared to just the needs of the other party or parties involved. Which then makes me question the intent behind the original scenario given.

I AM standing strong in my own power, recognizing the power of my choices. I Choose Me.  A simple statement with a powerful intent.



Two nights ago the number 1010157 popped into my mind as I slept.  As tired as I was I got up to write it down so I wouldn’t forget.  As I was thinking about this number today I thought the 10101 seemed like binary code.  I went to the internet and was guided to a site that said this breaks down to the number 21.  So now the number is 2157.  As I continued to BE guided in my search I came across this when I typed in the meaning of the number 5, The number 5 symbolizes God’s grace.  I immediately felt such a strong resonance to this sentence.  When I looked up the meaning of the number 7, this meaning practically felt like it jumped off the page at me.  The number 7 is the seeker, the thinker, the searcher of Truth (notice the capital “T”). The 7 doesn’t take anything at face value — it is always trying to understand the underlying, hidden truths. The 7 knows that nothing is exactly as it seems and that reality is often hidden behind illusions.

A few weeks ago I heard the following words, the power of two becoming One.  When I looked at the number 21 I was reminded of these words I received.  So when I put it all together it is “The power of two becoming One, through God’s Grace with nothing BEing exactly as it seems  and reality is often hidden behind illusions”.    I also found the below picture in reference to DNA and the piece of information that resonated with me.

The very program of life itself—the DNA molecule—contains the ‘Golden Ratio’.One revolution of the double helix measures 34 angstroms while the width is 21 angstroms. The ratio 34/21 reflects ‘Phi’, 34 divided by 21 equals 1.619… a close approximation of ‘Phi’s’ 1.618.


Notice the measurement mentioned of 21.  Aside from the fact that 2 +1 =3 (the Trinity).  I AM sure I AM only scratching the surface of the deeper meaning of all of this, there appears to almost BE layers upon layers of meaning.  Once again, I AM in awe.




Through the Eyes of Spirit

through the eyes of spirit

I AM BEing nudged to expand my vision (perception) of what is occurring around me.  To view these occurrences through the eyes of Spirit.  I AM given glimpses of the deeper meaning.  With this deeper understanding Spirit says all is not as it seems.  I AM bearing witness to the fear based beliefs that are playing out for others.  There is so much anger, sadness and confusion.  The masks are slipping.  Others are not able to cover their internal fears as easily anymore.  Which in turn only increases the fear vibration as they worry how much of themselves is BEing witnessed.  People are lashing out, or seeming to fall into depression, or their demeanor feels as though they feel very lost and alone.   I have to admit my nervous system has been on overload the last few days as my energetic sensitivities are on high alert.

I know this is serving a purpose, keeping me aware so that I may move into compassion and not take things personally.  Is this an easy task?  Not always.  But as I AM able to observe through the eyes of Spirit, my heart does open up with compassion.  But with this information comes the need for more time alone to sit with my own energy.  But my purpose here is to BE of service, in whatever way that may show up in my world.

Be Aware of Your Own Light

spiritual light

I have had another deep internal shift.  With this shift I AM observing how others are reacting to my Light.  What does that mean?  The reaction to my vibratory frequency.  I AM noticing when some people are in a conversation with me they automatically reach out and touch me, whether on the arm or shoulder.  It seems as they are not even aware of this.  I AM also experiencing others who almost appear clingy.  This is not in judgement but in observation.  I have been asked why they haven’t heard from me, why haven’t I called, perhaps I AM triggering their feelings of past abandonment, so they are experiencing what appears to BE my lack of communication as they are some how losing me.  Last but not least, I have even experienced others appearing to react to me in a very verbally aggressive manner.  Let me just say the energy behind those encounters is not pleasant!

But with these experiences I have to remind myself not to take it personally, for they are not reacting to me due to personal reasons, though it may appear that way.  They are in fact reacting to the way my vibratory frequency is triggering their own inner wounds.  So for those who are drawn to the Love that I AM radiating it appears positive, those who, on a deep subconscious level, are not yet experiencing their own self – Love are having a very different experience.

I have no control over how others react to me, as I can only continue to BE the Love that I AM.  But I can hold those who have not yet remembered their own state of BEing Love in a place of  deep compassion.  All on this journey must go at their own pace.

Rainbows and Moths and Nines, Oh My

clouds and rainbows.jpg

Yesterday was quite an interesting day for me.  In the afternoon as i was sitting at my desk at work, I looked out the big picture window in front of my desk and there was a rainbow coming through the opening in the clouds.  The rest of the sky was relatively cloud covered, so this stood out to me.  Oh rainbow light!  The energies of Unity!


Then last night while I was home relaxing on my couch a moth came out of no where and flew right to me and landed on my chest!  We are all God’s creations but I prefer not to have my signs that up close and personal!  I jumped up startled and it flew off but turned around again and landed on my head!  Hey, what gives!  My light apparently is shining bright if a moth is drawn to it (lol).  So much meaning coming through.


On Sunday, yesterday and today the numbers 9, 99, or 999 have been around me.  I have been experiencing the feeling of something completing but at the same time the feeling of new beginnings – death and rebirth, the cyclical spiral of creation.

I have to admit there are times when I do grow weary on this journey.  But after days like this and some extra needed rest, my excitement for all that is transpiring pours from my heart once again!


hazmat suit

I had a few dreams last night.  I remember having a dream and my Mom (who is deceased) and two other family members (who are still living) were having a conversation.  I don’t at this time remember what we were discussing.  Last week I had a dream with these same three family members.  My Mom is definitely visiting me more (or perhaps I AM more consciously aware of these visits).

In the next dream I was driving home on this road that I do travel five days a week to get to and from work, so I AM very familiar with this road.  As I got to a section in the road three men in hazmat suits were standing in the road that leads into a development of houses (I have driven through this development on more then one occasion).  I stopped and asked one of the men what was going on and he told me in no uncertain terms to move along.  I remember seeing what appeared to be a large cloud hovering over the houses.  I drove away feeling that they were experimenting on this area.

Then I was talking to a little girl who was telling me about how her family had mistreated her in a past life.  I don’t remember all the details now.  But the next thing I remember is holding a newspaper with a picture on the front page of the same little girl and another little girl standing next to her and several other people.  There was a large headline that said SURVIVORS.  I AM not sure how all this may tie in at the moment.  I do remember feeling that these dreams did not necessarily feel like they happened one after the other, but more of a feeling of them happening simultaneously.

** As a side note to my previous post called Deeper Embodiment in to Christ/Cosmic Consciousness , I just went on dictionary.com to check the correct spelling of a word.  I felt strongly guided to click on the word of the day and this is what popped up.   I just love synchronicity.



Tapping in to the Collective Consciousness

collective consciousness

Yesterday morning as I was waking up (the in-between state) I received the knowing of a step-mother having the fear that she would not be able to handle the responsibility of taking care of her autistic step-son.  This feeling and knowing that it was a step-mother and step-son relationship was very specific.  Was I tapping in to a fear that was embedded in the collective consciousness?

For several weeks in January I had the feeling of BEing off-line as far as having dreams, receiving guidance from my guides/teachers, etc.  But at the same time my inner knowing seemed to increase.  This week my dreams have started again, as well as seeing visions in my third eye.  Is this tapping in to the collective consciousness a new remembrance of my abilities?  Or perhaps just a one time thing?  Only “time” will tell.

I AM also experiencing clarity/insights about certain things going on in my life, but on a deeper level (the bigger picture expanding).  Another layer of the “onion” BEing peeled away.  I remain in the flow and I AM experiencing many synchronicities.  I AM experiencing more patience (never one of my strong points), not feeling the need to push and struggle to achieve my goals.  I AM just BEing.  I AM feeling tremendous peace at this time.