Yesterday was quite an interesting day for me. In the afternoon as i was sitting at my desk at work, I looked out the big picture window in front of my desk and there was a rainbow coming through the opening in the clouds. The rest of the sky was relatively cloud covered, so this stood out to me. Oh rainbow light! The energies of Unity!
Then last night while I was home relaxing on my couch a moth came out of no where and flew right to me and landed on my chest! We are all God’s creations but I prefer not to have my signs that up close and personal! I jumped up startled and it flew off but turned around again and landed on my head! Hey, what gives! My light apparently is shining bright if a moth is drawn to it (lol). So much meaning coming through.
On Sunday, yesterday and today the numbers 9, 99, or 999 have been around me. I have been experiencing the feeling of something completing but at the same time the feeling of new beginnings – death and rebirth, the cyclical spiral of creation.
I have to admit there are times when I do grow weary on this journey. But after days like this and some extra needed rest, my excitement for all that is transpiring pours from my heart once again!
I had a few dreams last night. I remember having a dream and my Mom (who is deceased) and two other family members (who are still living) were having a conversation. I don’t at this time remember what we were discussing. Last week I had a dream with these same three family members. My Mom is definitely visiting me more (or perhaps I AM more consciously aware of these visits).
In the next dream I was driving home on this road that I do travel five days a week to get to and from work, so I AM very familiar with this road. As I got to a section in the road three men in hazmat suits were standing in the road that leads into a development of houses (I have driven through this development on more then one occasion). I stopped and asked one of the men what was going on and he told me in no uncertain terms to move along. I remember seeing what appeared to be a large cloud hovering over the houses. I drove away feeling that they were experimenting on this area.
Then I was talking to a little girl who was telling me about how her family had mistreated her in a past life. I don’t remember all the details now. But the next thing I remember is holding a newspaper with a picture on the front page of the same little girl and another little girl standing next to her and several other people. There was a large headline that said SURVIVORS. I AM not sure how all this may tie in at the moment. I do remember feeling that these dreams did not necessarily feel like they happened one after the other, but more of a feeling of them happening simultaneously.
** As a side note to my previous post called Deeper Embodiment in to Christ/Cosmic Consciousness , I just went on dictionary.com to check the correct spelling of a word. I felt strongly guided to click on the word of the day and this is what popped up. I just love synchronicity.
Yesterday morning as I was waking up (the in-between state) I received the knowing of a step-mother having the fear that she would not be able to handle the responsibility of taking care of her autistic step-son. This feeling and knowing that it was a step-mother and step-son relationship was very specific. Was I tapping in to a fear that was embedded in the collective consciousness?
For several weeks in January I had the feeling of BEing off-line as far as having dreams, receiving guidance from my guides/teachers, etc. But at the same time my inner knowing seemed to increase. This week my dreams have started again, as well as seeing visions in my third eye. Is this tapping in to the collective consciousness a new remembrance of my abilities? Or perhaps just a one time thing? Only “time” will tell.
I AM also experiencing clarity/insights about certain things going on in my life, but on a deeper level (the bigger picture expanding). Another layer of the “onion” BEing peeled away. I remain in the flow and I AM experiencing many synchronicities. I AM experiencing more patience (never one of my strong points), not feeling the need to push and struggle to achieve my goals. I AM just BEing. I AM feeling tremendous peace at this time.
I AM ONE with Source. My molecular and cellular structure is vibrating at a frequency that allows me to BE One with Source. We all are One with Source, but all have not had that full remembrance as of yet. And that is ok. We are awakening to this knowing. Some at a more accelerated pace then others, but all is in Divine Order and we are all where we are meant to BE in this moment. As our humanness and our Spirits merge, we bring this knowledge, this knowing into our physical reality. These are exciting times for we have the power to create great change. I AM ONE. This is my experience. What do you wish to experience?
I AM an empath. For those who may not be familiar with the term, empaths experience what others are feeling, even when the person is showing the world one “face” , we know what is going on underneath the “surface”. As I choose to view this as a gift, there are times when it can BE quite overwhelming. I do not have to BE face to face with someone to pick up on what they may BE feeling. This can include places as well. Malls, social interactions, and large crowds can leave me feeling quite worn out. Enter my spiritual awakening. Now we are talking feelings on steroids. As I release what no longer serves me, my sensitivity heightens. After a day of interacting with others, depending on how well my shielding was in place can feel like I have been a punching bag. Empaths tend to take on the woes of others either consciously or unconsciously. Our purpose is always to help, which at times can be detrimental to our own well BEing. The last several months of my Mother’s life my knees hurt in the worst way. Why? Because my Mother had arthritis in her knees and I was trying to lessen her pain by taking on hers. Good for her, not so good for me. After her passing, the pain was gone like it was never there. There is also the joy I feel when I AM able to help someone and experience the relief, joy and happiness they are also experiencing.
I participated in a small workshop this pass weekend and not long after I arrived and sat down I begin to experience a pain in my back on the left hand side. I did not have this pain when I arrived. At the end of the workshop someone mentioned that they have experienced pain in their kidney on that side of their body. Oh! That explains it! As soon as I left the workshop and was no longer in their presence, pain gone. I know this is all a part of me Becoming who I truly AM. I look at it as a gift as I AM able to truly connect with others on a deeper level, as I can understand what they are feeling by feeling what they are unable or unwilling to express verbally. I AM Becoming better at releasing what is not mine, so I do not make the mistake of carrying around what does not BElong to me. I feel I AM BEing made more consciously aware of this for a reason. I welcome the expansion of this healing ability.
This past weekend was a time of great emotion as well as clarity. Each day I step further into who I AM. My confidence continues to grow and with that, the knowledge that I can no longer play small so that others may sit in their comfort zones. As long as I play small, I allow others to keep me in a box. I AM a limitless BEing, and I AM not doing anyone any true good by not embracing this truth. I must BE ME, for in BEing me, I AM opening a space for others to BE who they are as well.
That BEing said, the realization is also once again BEing brought to my awareness that I cannot sit and wait while others make their decision to step into their own power. I can only plant the seed, BE the catalyst of change. What others choose to do with that is in fact their choice. I cannot put the brakes on my own continued growth, for in my heart I know this is not God’s plan for me.
As I reflect on my life, I look back and see all the challenges I have faced. But through it all I have always had my Faith in God’s will for me. Even when it felt as though I could not always feel that connection, I would feel if I continued to put one foot in front of the other, a way would open up, a solution if you will.
As I stand in this phase of my journey, this feeling rises up in me. I can no longer dim my light, even if /when that means that others may have to leave my life. I continue to stay open and receptive to all possibilities to fully experience this calling that God has placed in my heart.
Last evening, as it was just starting to get dark outside, I had to go out and run an errand. As I was getting in my car I turned around and looked back over the parking lot and everything looked as though there was a white film covering everything. I blinked my eyes, thinking that’s odd. I ran my errand and as I returned home to the road I turn into going into my development, I noticed a black car sitting on the side of the road, but once again as I looked out of the window, everything had this white film. I turned to look at the car and driver as I drove by, but seemed like this it was not a totally clear view due to this film. I realized when I finally parked that the person I passed was my Beloved. Now let me say I can sense and feel him if he is around me, but yet I was not clear if that was him as I drove by.
I finally realized today that this was Spirits way of showing me the thinning veils that are happening at this time. When I saw the picture above, it drove that point home. I feel like this is why Spirit showed me using my Beloved, because for me to not “see” it was truly him speaks volumes.
So all this BEing said, the veils between the physical world and the spiritual realm are definitely thinning. We are finding that we are able to connect more deeply with Spirit. Though we have always had this ability, the denser energies of the old earth did not “allow” us to do so. We “forgot” who we truly are. As we awaken and clear away the dense energies of fear, shame, guilt, etc. we are able to “remember” and embody our true God-Self. Things just keep getting more and more interesting and exciting!