When I first started this journey I had no idea of the space in which I currently stand would be achieved. Not that I set out with any particular plan, simply following the calling of my heart.
The growth I witness in both myself and my Beloved is amazing to behold. I AM learning to BE in the flow of this unfolding that is occurring. No longer having expectations of how things “should be” but content to enjoy how things are in the NOW moment.
The expansion of Love I feel for my Beloved leaves me breathless. How can a heart hold so much Love? At times it leaves me feeling overwhelmed. I recently got to spend a little time with my Beloved, we are on different work schedules for the time BEing, but I feel even that serves a purpose. The feeling I have when I AM in his presence is as though the whole world recedes and it is just him and I. And though my heart is sad when we part, at the same time I feel uplifted and fortified to continue with this journey.
Together or “apart”, I know we are always connected. This knowledge comes from the depth of my heart. The space that is on the other side of illusion.
My Beloved and I have been in communication. It started back in January which is no coincidence since we moved into 2017 (a one year, new beginnings). So far we have been texting, we have talked on the phone a few times as well as having spent some time together a couple of times. The energy feels different, calmer. He has been honest and said he is still in a relationship, so we have both released all expectation and stay in the present moment. We both agree we are happier when we are able to communicate with each other. We have both surrendered to what is in this present moment.
So far we have not shut down and pulled away, but we have learned to work through what comes up now for the both of us. We recently tried to spend some time together and it did not work out. I was disappointed of course, but my guidance said “be patient, things are unfolding.” I AM standing in my faith that all is well.
As I move forward I AM in allowance. I can only trust what is in my heart. The journey continues.
What is there to say regarding 2016? As I reflect on 2016, much has happened. I have witnessed the spewing of hateful, hurtful words. I have experienced loss, grief and coming to terms about these feelings. I have lost relationships and gained new ones. The appearance of chaos, destruction (of people, places and ideals). These experiences have weighed heavily on my heart and soul.
But through this entire year of all that has transpired, there has always remained this flame in my heart that would also rise up in tandem with the pain. That flame was LOVE. Through it all it would surround me, enfold me within this feeling. I realized that no matter what, I can only BE what I AM, which is LOVE! LOVE is what keeps me moving forward. I made this promise to myself and God, that I would never give up! That I would BE a beacon of LIGHT for others who want to embrace their own LOVE and LIGHT!
I have cried many tears of sadness, and I have cried many tears of joy throughout this year. In my heart I know that the unification of hearts coming together as ONE reverberates this wave of LOVE throughout the world and the Cosmos. I truly believe this year has showed us what we are truly made of. We are powerful beyond measure.
As we move forward into 2017 (a year of new beginnings) I for one am going to stand firm in my commitment to BE an anchor for the LOVE to take hold, so that miracles can BE created and experienced by ALL!
I AM a powerful BEing. Sit with that statement for a minute. What is the feeling this statement invokes in you? Fear? Disbelief? A glimmer of Hope? A resonance of Truth? Whatever it may BE, just let it BE. For this is a step toward Self empowerment. What, you ask does one step do? It builds momentum. A natural forward movement toward your True Self. Please do not feel you are not moving forward fast enough. For the road toward the Empowerment of Self is taken one step at a time.
This past week has been quite the roller coaster ride. I was dealing with a health issues on Monday of last week, but on Tuesday was told by Spirit I was experiencing a reset. I feel okay for the most part now. People around me are experiencing different forms of illness, but most are not ready to hear about the energetic reasons for what they are experiencing. So I just continue to observe and make note of the explanations Spirit shares with me. Maybe I AM not suppose to share at this time, merely observe the internal shifts that others are experiencing.
The emotions I experienced this past weekend were also amazing. The love that was radiating from my heart on Friday and Saturday felt so beautiful. Last night before bed I felt a wave of such sadness in my heart, it felt very much like one would experience through grief. All I could do was release this energy through tears, and breathe through the sensation until it was gone. But I realize even with this feeling of sadness, it bought home to me the beauty of allowing our emotions to flow as needed. Not to judge, or even necessarily try to give it a reason why it is happening, merely allow the feeling to flow and release.
So much seems to BE happening and information coming through, some of which I don’t fully understand at this time. All I can do is make a note of it and know that the understanding will come in Divine timing. In the meantime, I trust that I AM guided and loved.