The energies from the full moon/lunar eclipse were intense last week and my energy integration had me all over the place emotionally. Last Monday I felt on top of the world, but the rest of last week there were bouts of sadness, anger, joy, happiness – a roller coaster of feelings. I was craving carbs and sweets like crazy, something my body needed to help with the integration process. By Friday of last week, I felt like I was in a pressure cooker ready to explode. Things seem to have settled down for now.
For the last several weeks I have been experiencing issues with head/sinus/teeth and have felt this was in part due to a large releasing taking place within me. There have been many moments of great melancholy, feelings of needing to let go on such a deep level it is hard to put into words. But at the same time, an inner knowing of once again BEing in the void, the space of infinite possibilities. A clearing out of more which no longer serves me. It leaves me with the feeling of vast openness to what is to come. I know this releasing is due to the integration of more Light. I also find when I AM going through these further initiations, Spirit takes a step “back”, so that I may strengthen my connection to my own inner knowing.
With all the inner changes taking place within me, I AM seeing this in my outer world. Especially in terms of interactions/relationships with others. They are drawn to my Light, but at the same time, it is making some have feelings of BEing uncomfortable. I can see and feel the inner struggle of wanting to BE close, but also feeling the need to “escape”. There are those who are still not ready to do the inner work, to face all that wishes to come up and BE released, which can lead to more feelings of feeling “lost” and confusion, as the old is no longer working as it use to for them. As I AM here to support and guide, but more importantly to BE, my heart is always open for those ready to move more deeply into their own experience.
My journey continues.