When I first started this journey I had no idea of the space in which I currently stand would be achieved. Not that I set out with any particular plan, simply following the calling of my heart.
The growth I witness in both myself and my Beloved is amazing to behold. I AM learning to BE in the flow of this unfolding that is occurring. No longer having expectations of how things “should be” but content to enjoy how things are in the NOW moment.
The expansion of Love I feel for my Beloved leaves me breathless. How can a heart hold so much Love? At times it leaves me feeling overwhelmed. I recently got to spend a little time with my Beloved, we are on different work schedules for the time BEing, but I feel even that serves a purpose. The feeling I have when I AM in his presence is as though the whole world recedes and it is just him and I. And though my heart is sad when we part, at the same time I feel uplifted and fortified to continue with this journey.
Together or “apart”, I know we are always connected. This knowledge comes from the depth of my heart. The space that is on the other side of illusion.
My soul speaks to yours, for we are One. Purity of heart and mind, we merge into the Love of who we truly are. My Beloved, you are my shining star, the doorway to our eternal Love. You have released me from my fears and catapulted me in to freedom. I melt in your arms as our heart and soul become One. My beautiful Beloved, welcome Home.
I AM constantly amazed by the Love flowing from my heart. Love continually expanding, radiating out to encompass all. The overwhelming feeling I AM experiencing at time causes tears to flow. Doing the inner work so that I can release the wounds and traumas that no longer serve me has allowed me to let down the walls that have surrounded my heart. With this work I have come to the realization that Loving with an open heart brings with it freedom. I AM no longer loving from a place of fear, but from a space of self acceptance, self – Love and a knowingness that I AM worthy and enough as I AM. I do not fear experiencing the pain of heart break because I know that any hurt I may experience is my heart BEing broken open, so that I may in fact move deeper into Love. A constant giving and receiving of Love, the continual contraction and expansion of Creation.
This Love does not have to BE attached to a particular person, place or thing, but reflects all things. There is no attachment or co-dependence, only wholeness. I Love with an open heart.
My heart awaits in anticipation of your imminent return. I have waited for all eternity for this moment. The Love I feel in my heart for you, continuously growing and expanding, is but a mere drop in the sea of our Divine Love. Our soul has longed for this time, where we can merge not only etherically, but physically, so that the world can bear witness to this beautiful Love.
You are the God to my Goddess. My Beloved, I await your return with bated breath.
About a week ago, once again, my Beloved and I were drawn together. We were able to spend some time together this time around, which always makes my heart sing. But for now we had to part ways once again. I did notice something different after this time together. That night when I went to bed I felt so energized. I literally couldn’t sleep. Usually when I can’t sleep, I become both restless and annoyed for the lack of sleep. But this time I could feel this incredible energy in my body and I laid there quite peaceful and content. I did think to myself that I did not know how I was going to make it through the day with no sleep at all, but as it turned out I went through the entire day with this energized feeling. It made me realize that my Beloved and I are strong within ourselves, but together our energy is truly amplified. I just love when I AM able to observe a new nuance to the connection between me and my Beloved!
During the holidays I had lunch with a very good friend of mine. We some how got on the subject of Love and relationships and he made a comment along the lines of “with relationships you have to give up your freedom.” Wait a minute, what? As I contemplated this comment for the next few days I realized there are some who may feel this way as well.
True Love, love from the soul, does not ask you to give up your freedom. Quite the contrary, Love is continuously growing and evolving, it is expansive. True Love encourages one to spread their wings and fly. Anything else being experienced is not True Love, as True Love from our soul, our spirit is unconditional. The Love that most of us have experienced have had conditions attached, and that may have given us a feeling of giving up our freedom.
But one must discover their own inner wholeness. This is a process. When we look to others to find “completeness”, what we are really saying is without you I AM not whole. But in truth we are. When we begin to recognize our own wholeness (holiness), we no longer feel the need to search outside ourselves for someone to fill this need. We stop searching outside of ourselves and begin to experience our internal wholeness. We then begin to raise our energetic vibration. This process is a healing (wholing) within ourselves. We then begin to attract others to us who are experiencing this same process. Our relationships then become one of choice, not desperation from fear of losing that person, or loneliness. When we stand in our own wholeness (holiness), we radiate this to others. We live and lead by example. This is how we change the world. There is a fire within you, a flame waiting to be ignited. Stand up and declare I AM Whole! Affirm this and so it is done.